Rainy Sunday Morning

And all is well. We had a not so good day yesterday but we're going to try and make up for it today. I finally asked the neighbor to move the car and not put it back since we were moving. It's gone and hopefully no more disturbances in the neighbor force. We are having some quotes done tomorrow for having someone come in and finish ALL the work on the house maybe minus the carpet, we'll see. That way we could possibly have the house ready to sell within a few weeks!!! I am going to miss TX, but I think we'll be so much better off back in TN. We already have a place picked to live http://www.thephillipsbuilders.com/find-your-home/bridge-mill-at-providence . A nice little townhouse, in a nice subdivision, with a nice school. We were going to get a house there but these are a better deal, plus the floorplan is nicer.
So this weekend we blew our diet through the roof, so as of Monday it's back to eating better. We just need to go and get more groceries today.

I'm just so excited that WORSE case our house will be on the market by the end of March!

My School Days

So, I grew up in a small college town named Murray, KY. I think every child should be given basic things for school, new clothes, a new haircut, and basic little nicknacks to keep a child in style. Some bemoan the fact of spending the money on all those things. Well let's just say this...if you don't, you are futher tormenting your child to a HORRIBLE time at school. I always got hand me downs and was lucky to have even wal-mart clothes for school! I didn't get a new wardrobe like everyone else did every fall before school started, I didn't even get my haircut regularly like other children. When I did it was something well long out of style, and hard for me to maintain. My mother, I hate to say, is an akward person that isn't into being stylish, getting new clothes, wearing makeup, etc. Most of those things that a mom passes down to their daughter. So I grew up shy, but i tried very hard to make friends. My social skills were akward as well, I didn't know when to say and not say certain things, or do certain things. I had a hard time picking up on certain things a normal kid could. I was tormented in school, from people saying mean things, like I didn't bathe and I had bugs flying around my head. I became a joke to the other kids. I only had a few friends and without them I would have wanted to commit suicide at an early age. You should ALWAYS teach your kids NOT to say mean things to other kids. Do you people that made fun of me know what hell you put me through? It got worse the older I got. I really tried, all the time, to become like everyone else, but also just tried to be me. The worse my parents had no money, the worse it got with having the same clothes I wore years before, I quit getting haircuts regularly, and became more and more depressed. I do remember spending most of my junior and senior year reclused in a shell. I quit trying in school, I almost flunked out. All I wanted was to be a happy, normal girl. I remember prom I was actually lucky enough to have a date, from another school....all the while as we walked to get our picture taken I had someone in the crowd yell something obscene at me, that I didn't hear. I got laughed at and didn't even know it. After I found out I was humiliated to say the least. He didn't even dance with me, we just took off after that. I didn't care, I got no real prom, and no fun memories like everyone else. I didn't start having as much fun with my life until I went off to Germany. If I would have only had a good life and friends like everyone else did I would have been able to stomach staying in college and have a degree now. Books were my best friends. Books couldn't make fun of me, or treat me bad. I could escape off into another world and just forget about everything! I still read, just not as much because I dont have the time. So many thoughts are jumbling out of my head. I just remember the akward life I had. I remember sitting on the band bus and people making fun of me on a trip, saying cruel things, which drove me to quit. I don't know why someone has to be the butt of everyone's joke. Just so they feel so good about themselves. It's no wonder why people want to commit suicide, as I have for MANY a year. I'm just glad to have someone that finally stands by me and let's me be myself and I don't have to pretend to be someone I'm not....which I will never be cool I guess or have really any friends. It's just me I guess.

This is what I need to start getting done. We went out and got more plastic crates for packing last night so I can do that during the day. Everything but the master bath and hall closet is painted up here, then we have to repaint all downstairs. The people that had this house before us painted it a bland, super-light gray and put in almsot white carpte /puke! Now this house is coming alive with a nice medium tan carpet, and COLOR! Nothing worse than stepping into a bland house! Brian and I decided to never buy another pre-owned house again after the pool is getting repaired. Between the cheapness of the house and everything that has falled apart, and the pool that was cheaply made, we have blown through SO much money! So from now on, we are going to TRY and make sure that we never buy a pre-owned house. I know not all houses are lemons, but whoever built this house did a horrible job, and the only owner it's had since it was built was CHEAP! He did only cheap upgrades, and NEVER maintained anything in or outside the house!!!!!!! A house is like a car, would you just drive your car without ever changing the oil, getting the tires rotated and balanced, or have a tune-up? Well a house is the same way. Hvac needs to be cleaned and maintained, the appliances should be maintained, air ducts should be cleaned, preventative for bugs, etc. I can't get people that buy things that are expensive and don't take care of them!
On another note my son is starting to finally be interested in things he should have been playing with almost a year ago. He stacks blocks,plays with duplos, rolls trucks, and is finally starting to mimic us a little. I hope that eventually he wills tart talking by 3. My poor little late-bloomer! He loves the little playmat we got at home depot for 20 bucks. I'm so excited that in 1 week he's shown such a drastic improvement. We are still trying to take bad things out of his diet too. Get rid of any MSG and high fructose corn syrup. For my sake and his! You would not BELIEVE the things that tout they are healthy or good for you that they sneak these things into!!!! We pick up EVERYTHING we buy now and read the label. Did you know normal Honey Maid Graham Crackers have HFCS but if you get the bees they don't??? What happpened to just making things with good old sugar??? I know the other crap is less expensive to make but since most of the world is trying to be healthier some of you companies are NOT setting a good example! KRAFT is HORRIBLE about putting junk in their foods!!!!!! If you are going to buy Kraft then pick up the box first! We have almost cut out buying any of their brands altogether. This is why we love going to H.E.B owned Central Market. Getting green cleaners, healthier and fresh foods, etc is SO nice! We both wish that it wasn't so expensive to eat better though....WHY oh WHY can't good foods be less expensive :(

Rain Rain Go Away...

Well actually rain doesn't bother me, especially when I'm not leaving the house. The only thing that does bother me is our broken pool pump. So we won't be able to backwash the pool to empty it out. At least brian is here so HE can bail the pool out hehehe... So I didn't blog this weekend because Brian came home and we were all spending quality time as a family. I enjoy when he goes on trips for like the first day or two of peace and then I get too lonely and mope. He's happy to be home too but both of us are in ways really looking forward to getting back to Nashville. Our friends are there, we are tired of this neighborhood, and well I would say family if they weren't all acting like asses. My mother won't the phone if I call. IF she feels like talking she will call me back. Mostly she won't. My oldest brother just blows his money while living at home with mommy. Instead of fixing up the house that we grew up in, that was supposed to be MINE, he has torn that old house up and then says he can't afford to live in it. MAGICALLY he has money for antiques that he doesn't need, a TV, video games, a new phone, a laptop, all this shit he doesn't need that could go into replacing crap in the old house. In ways no I don't blame the old lady for skipping out on him. She wanted a nice place to live in, a decent car to ride in, a husband that cared more about her than playing video games, etc. The way she cheated on him etc was shitty as hell though. She's engaged to be married to the guy while my brother mopes around txting girls that probably don't give a shit about someone that lives at home with mommy that is jealous over their ex. My other brother doesn't talk to me because I called his old lady out for them not coming to visit us. Instead we are supposed to drive 10 hours, then stop at their house, and get to the hotel at midnight? Nope don't think so! There wasn't a chance in hell of us making 2 pitstops for visiting people when it's so late already. Not to mention NOBODY can take time to be bothered to actually come see US in Nashville. That's typical though, when we did live there they pretty much never came to visit. So as far as family is concerned they can kiss my ass. Tired of having to live where they say, because it's such an inconvinience to them if I don't live on the North side of Nashville. I wanted to leave Murray so I could have a life and not end up country bumpkins like they have. Plus I'm so tired of my mothers incessant whining about how everyone at work and outside of it is out to get her. Of course they are mad at you dumb bitch, you can retire and not have to work, yet you wonder why people are getting mad because they CAN'T afford to be without a job. RETIRE already!!!!!! You are putting someone in need because of what? A job you hate? So don't come whining to me anymore about it. You are lame. If you don't like Murray it's simple MOVE!

I seriously don't get people anymore....

Cleaning and Packing Oh MY!

Yes, I am going to get a little more serious today and see if I can't get something accomplished today. I'm sitting here resting after cleaning the litterboxes. We put two side by side and they seem to like that better than sharing one. Dumped them both all the way out and they now have fresh, clean litter. Now I'm sure my house smells instantly better. We run two air purifiers, one upstairs, and one downstairs. These things do SUCH an amazing job! They clean the air, humidify/dehumidify, and lightly scent the air. http://www.bedbathandbeyond.com/product.asp?order_num=-1&SKU=14640924 . It's a definite must buy! Once we started running these puppies any musty scent in the house was gone. So William is doing a really good job messing up his playroom, which is the central part of the house, meaning we all hang out here all the time. We have two living areas downstairs and we NEVER use them! We have four bedrooms up and this HUGE loft area! We will ahte not having the loft but I'll be happy not to have to clean as much. You know, one of those bedrooms we set up as a guest bedroom and it never gets used, so we decided not to have a guest bedroom.

On another note Brian saw the neighborhood we are looking at buying at. http://www.providencecommunity.net/ The verdict is....we LOVE it! I can't wait to see it in person. First we have to sell this house and do something with our other house in Nashville. We hope that the people leasing it qualify to buy it. Two houses gone leaves us free and clear to buy another one. So pray and cross fingers that everything goes well and we will be happily in a new house sometime this year. I'm going to miss TX but you have to do what's best for your family.

Almost Lunchtime...

and I almost forgot to write! William is doing his best to get my Dr. Pepper and he won't win. Brian is going out to eat today at the Cheesecake Factory for lunch with his coworkers, the DBA team. Damn him lol! He's managed to eat all sorts of goodies I would die to be eating right now. So today he's going to go look at a community our realtor told us about. Sounds really nice, it's own school, shopping, etc. It also is close to the new train that runs to downtown Nashville. The houses are lovely houses. It has cape cod style and brick. It looks well set up. We live in a master planned community and it's not bad but it's certainly not great either. It's just a large, spread out, sloppy-planned community. The HOA here is a total joke. All they do is run around sending nasty grams about the yards and where you put your trash cans and that's it. All I ask for is a nice hood with good neighbors that respect each other. I want a place where my son feels safe walking or riding his bike to and from school. So he's supposed to msg me some pics via phone so I can see what it looks like, and I'm so excited about it! I hope both of our houses sell so that our finances will get back into a good state of being. One house to rule them all hehehe! Then we can build our dream home. Can't wait for that to happen. More to come later as I get to see pics.....

Good Morning! And Let's Talk About Neighbors....

So a good morning to everyone. Today William shot out of bed like a rocket and was already on the move. We only cuddled on the couch together for a minute then he was in super play mode. Did the animal chores and then we're off again in play mode. All in all it's a good morning. He slept like a log last night so I was able to get plenty of sleep myself. Called hubby and said a good morning to him. Of course I had to log onto FB to chat, and most importantly check all my little games heh :) So now onto todays topic...neighbors.

Most everyone has them, since today a lo of people live in suburbia. The great American dream, to have your neighbors houses pushed so close to yours you could spit out your window and hit them. We have not been exactly lucky in the neighbor department. At first when we were living in River Glen when we just started living together, I don't think I ever remember seeing our neighbors ever. Rule number 1 - Always at least try to meet and get to know a little about your neighbors. You never know when an emergency might arise and it would help if you at least knew their names. Then we moved into Indian Creek. Now there were more interesting times here. Most of the neighbors made an effort to come say hi and introduce themselves. Our neighbor to one side was a wood worker. We lived on a corner lot so we had a neighbor behind us. Now that neighbor, ughhh, what can I say.....they were asses! I think about the first time we met him, he yelled at his kids to get off the grass and play on the sidewalk. I couldn't BELIEVE what he just said!!! WTF kind of people don't let their kids play in the nice safe backyard in grass????? Also they let their kids ride motorcycles and four wheelers. Mind you these kids look like they are still in elementary school! So they would ride through the neighborhood keeping us peeved off. Especially when I was pregnant and afterwards, when more people with 4 wheelers started doing that crap. They also came over and bitched at us when we built our fence because as the company was sealing it some got on their car. So yes, if you go with Harry Conley Fence company better be prepared! After our fence posts warped they have NEVER come out to fix it!!!!!! Again, beware www.harryconleyfence.com , they make beautiful fences but getting a repair on your fence is impossible, they definately don't stand by their word!!!!!!! So back to the story, so they harassed us about that too. All in all they were the WORST sort of neighbor one could have. Rule 2 - NEVER ride your dirt bikes and 4 wheelers through a suburbia neighborhood. It's not the country, it's not your land, it's not safe, and it's ANNOYING and down right RUDE!!!!!!!! If you want to ride them, go take them somewhere that they are MEANT to be ridden! Better yet, go live out in the country, buy a house with land, and ride them all over your property! Rule 3 - Try to get along with your neighbors. For all my bitchiness on here, we never bothered them about nything and put up with all their bullshit as it came. So after this we were getting severly tired of this community. Then we moved to Texas. I swear I had a better, more quiet time living in the Amli apartments than anywhere else. Once we bought our house in Park Glen, out close to Keller, it just kept going downhill from there. The neighbor one one side, he avoided eye contact and all forms of communication. I would say hi to him and he would act like he couldn't even hear me! Plus he has a horrid teenage son that comes and goes at all hours when he pleases. We got a sack of eggs thrown on our car and we are pretty sure it was his son tossing leftover eggs from an egging at a different neighborhood. Tossed the evidence out on our suv. I wish I could tie that stupid brat to a tree and spend all night throwing eggs at him! So when we first moved in our other neighbor was married. Boy was this lady a piece of work! When we were coming to look at the house, she bombarded us wanting to know why we were trespassing at her neighbor's house!!!!! UMMMM..........LOOK AT THE FUCKING FOR SALE SIGN.....GET A CLUE PSYCHO!!!!!!!!! Thankfully they divorced, because she terrorized EVERYONE that tried to come over here and do lawn work, or even the roofers!!!! So what does this Mr Retarded Neighbor do, he moves in one of the other neighbors and her kids......... methinks they were doing it before these two got a divorce. I tried to be nice and make friends. It's hard to make friends when you have 4 cars, and 1 of those gets parked in front of my house daily. So instead of cleaning out the garage and putting at least 1 car in their.....no, of course not, that would be too easy. This went on for MONTHS. They finally got a clue and shifted their cars around in front of their house to make room for that one. Rule 3 - Don't put your shit anywhere near your neighbors. If you don't mow their yard, then don't think you have the right to put your shit on it or near it. This brings us to the real kicker.....LOUD asshat neighbors. These guys were the cream of the crop....partying till about 4am playing their music so loud you could hear it all over the neighborhood. (Mind you our neighbor whom looks like trailer trash seemed to be friends with these people). This is totally unacceptable behavior!!!!!! People generally need sleep since they have to get up and go to work. When you are blaring your shit after midnight on a work week then you are going to have a LOT of people that you should now consider your enemy. Pissed off people that now havent had a good nights sleep. You have to love how many times the cops get called to their house, they turn it down, cops leave, they turn it up. The cops would have to come out TONS of times, but would never hall their butts in to sit in jail. Rule 4 - Keep your loud shit to a minimum, nobody wants to spend a sleepless night awake because you deem it ncessary to play your music with your back door open as loud as it can go! Again, if you want to act like white trash, go live in the country. There's plenty of rednecks out there waiting for you. Now we are going back to Nashville. I seriously hope this next hood we are buying into is a lot better and we get some nice, respectful, decent neighbors. Honestly I come off as a total bitch, but there are rules to living in suburbia...play by them or get out!

Going to officially kick this off!

So I am going to start actually using this thing. I'm not too swell at writing anything remotely sounding deep and meaningful, but I'm more or less doing this to get my thoughts out of my head. Actually I had a livejournal once upon a time, but I never knew what to say and it all sounded like garbage. A lot has happened since I had written in it, as I'm not married to Lee anymore. I met someone who to me is a lot better for ME, and we had a baby. A baby, something I swore I would never have, then started opening up to the idea of it, then finally began wanting one. Isn't that what the cool girls do? Anyway, he does take up 100% of my time, but I love him soooo much! Actually when he finally starts going to school, I plan on devoting more of my time to hobbies. I want to really dig in to playing the violin, horseback riding, and I want to get in some traveling at some point. I also want to learn how to grow my own fruits n veggies as eating healthy is becoming more important to Brian and myself. Around I would say a year ago I was diagnosed with PCOS. It has seriously taken a toll on my health. I went from being 130 to 220 in the space of about about 2 years. I went from being a nice average weight for me to HUGE! I'm only 5'2" so for me that is super huge. Now that i'm taking pills since it made me borderline diabetic i'm down to about 185ish and slowllyyy loosing it. I need to get more involved in working out though. If I were to work out like I should be I would be dropping it faster. I know that in my head, but we are moving back to Nashville and I'm supposed to be packing, etc. Right now I'm procrastinating and eating an afternoon snack of yogurt and grapes with William (my son). Last night he decided he didn't want to sleep and stayed up till 2am after falling asleep at 6:40pm. I hate going without sleep!!!!!!!!! I'm hoping tonight is more peaceful and he makes it to his normal bedtime and sleeps good. So here is to me making a post at least once a day and sharing thoughts on things and trying to keep track of my bad eating habits and maybe get some advice on how to change them :)